Thinking About Life
I confess that there are so many issues
about life on earth that make no sense, that it leaves me frustrated.
Sure, for those of us who experienced years of the Worldwide Church of
God, we learned what truth is not.
We know that religious hierarchy
stinks. We know that men who stand in pulpits and pretend to represent
God are far off base. We know that tithing is a very false doctrine.
We know that many have made prophecies about the future and were very
wrong. We have learned that charismatic personalities can often
persuade the gullible and naive. We have learned that FEAR and GUILT
are tools of control. We have learned that the Bible is NOT
infallible and inerrant, and that it is interpreted in as many different
ways as there are specks of sand upon the seashores. We have learned
that anyone can potentially be caught up in cult groups and man-made religious beliefs.
Beyond
all that, when we read that "they shall lay hands upon the sick and
they shall recover", it does not always happen and even in most cases
does not. I have yet to see a paralyzed human being healed
instantaneously, or a paraplegic restored and I have prayed for both
categories of such people. I have been in a nursing home where some
human beings are nothing more than physical and or mental vegetables,
and all the prayers never had any result that was positive. I have
been to two Benny Hinn "Healing Crusades" and have witnessed first hand
the emotional impact such events have upon thousands of human beings in
attendance. I have read many books by the most famous "healing
evangelists" or preachers known to man, such as Kathryn Kuhlman, Smith
Wigglesworth, Oral Roberts, John G. Lake and others. I even attended an
Oral Roberts "healing crusade" in Amarillo, Texas as a young child and was overwhelmed with what I saw and experienced.
Once,
some years ago my wife and I traveled to a church to hear a man who
proclaimed that he had "raised" something like 14-people from the "dead"
in Mexico, in his personal ministry and over a period of years. During his
talk, we were all spell-bound with what he had to say, and during the
service, in through the doors came a family rolling a man in serious
condition (Lou Gehrig's Disease, as we learned) on a hospital bed.
Naturally we expected a "miracle", because after all, here was the
man standing in the pulpit who "raised people from the dead." After
the service, the guest minister was ushered over to the bedside of this
man who was at death's door, and nothing happened. The sick man went out the same way he came in. Our disappointment was deep.
Once,
my wife and I attended a service at a church where the guest speaker
and his wife, had a "healing" ministry, where people supposedly had
their teeth filled with "gold" where their cavities were. The guest
minister asked that anyone who wanted gold fillings to come forward,
and a friend of mine and myself, along with others went forward. The
"minister" looked in our mouths with a flashlight and literally said "I
see nothing but gold." In our gullibility of course we thought that
our fillings had been turned to gold. When we went home and looked in
the mirror, there was no gold. Naturally our disappointment was
enormous and such an experience only added to our loss of faith and confidence in the clergy class of people.
In
my personal life, I have experienced church beyond the Worldwide Church
of God. My personal church life includes charismatic, pentecostal,
baptist and other groups and even including what is called "house
church", which is not controlled by any church organization. In many
organized churches they have what is called "cell groups", which I have
also been a part of in years past. Ultimately my wife and I came to
the conclusion that 100% of all organized churches are man-made
institutions and having nothing to do with the teachings of Jesus
Christ. Admittedly Jesus Christ has NEVER approached me personally, in a
visible and physical form and spoken to me, so much as one word and yet I still believe in Jesus Christ.
In
spite of all the negative church experiences, Jesus makes sense to my
reason. I will never embrace atheism. I concede that what is called
the "Bible" is full of myth, legend, human fabrication and yet it is
astonishingly the most read "book" in the world, and argued over more
than any other writings in human experience. In fact the "Holy" books
of the major religions of the world are to my thinking the reason for
so many problems in human life.
Indeed God is a mystery and I have
never found a satisfactory answer to human suffering. I have never
known anyone who has not suffered in human life. Suffering is both
physical and mental and life is overwhelming at times. Who can
comprehend why there are tornadoes, hurricanes, earthquakes and what we
all call "natural" disasters? Who can comprehend why humans can be so
intelligent and genius and at the same time so stupid as to be
idiots, which to my thinking is what all wars are---insane? Why can't
life be for positive and constructive purposes instead of idiot and
never ending wars of death and destruction? Why sickness and disease
and mental anguish and torment?
The only conclusion that I
have been able to come to is that "the wisdom of God is greater than the
lack of understanding of human beings." As far as what happens after
the death of the body, no one has a clue, other than what we all read
in ink on paper, which is nothing more than human say so. Atheism
offers no hope. If there were no hope of life beyond the physical
human realm, then human life is to my thinking without meaning and purpose.
What makes sense about Jesus to my reason is that He taught "love your
neighbor as you love yourself", "do unto others as you would have them
do unto you", "blessed are the peacemakers", "blessed are the meek"
and so forth. In essence what Jesus taught in one word is LOVE.
Anything attributed to Jesus that would appear to contradict Himself,
makes no sense and to me is very questionable as to its real source. As
far as we all know Jesus Christ never penned anything and all that we know of Him is strictly based upon what men write.
We
can choose to believe or we can choose not to believe. Strangely, no
matter how we believe about God, it does not change the fact of His
existence and if He does not exist, it does not change that reality.
Personally, I choose to believe.
Van Robison