Dear Brothers and Sisters In Christ
Patrick and I have recently run into several of the
Charlotte LCG brethren in different places while running errands around town.
We were shocked to learn that they consistently believed that we had left the
church and didn’t want to come back. I’m not sure if these was assumption on
their parts or, if that is what people are being lead to believe from
leadership. Nonetheless, we wanted to clear things up so you would have our
side of things to put an end to the speculation once and for all.
We love and miss ALL of our LCG brothers and sisters more
than you will ever know. We think of little else. We truly considered all of
you to be our family. We love you so much. Patrick and I have mourned the loss
of our church and our friends like a death. The last 6 months have been
absolutely awful. I cannot count the times I’ve cried or verbalize to you the
profound gut wrenching sadness we have experienced over this loss. Our hearts
are truly broken. We NEVER WANTED TO LEAVE LCG. We never even knew we were in
threat of being dis-fellowshipped.
There have been many rumors as to why we were marked and
dis-fellowshipped. At first, they believed we gave Cogwriter information about
Mr. Apartian’s negative views of LCG at the end of his life which were posted
on his blog. LCG called Bob Thiel and he fully exonerated us of all charges. Next they believed that we had tried to get
Charles Ogwyn to leave Living and to start a new church with us. Again, there was not a shred of truth in
this. Patrick spoke with Mr. Ogwyn and he confirmed that he had absolutely NO
RECOLLECTION of any such conversation. He told us that he was going to tell Mr.
McNair that his information was inaccurate and he is an honest man so we can
only assume that he did exactly that. Next we were accused of causing division
in the Charlotte congregation. There is again, no truth in this. I told them
that they could interview all 250 Charlotte brethren and not one of them would
say that Patrick and I were divisive. We fully agree with church doctrine. These
offenses would possibly have been worthy of dis-fellowshipping but we were not
guilty of any of them.
To this
day, 6 months later, we have still never been given so much as one truthful reason that warranted
receiving the worst, most strict punishment available to LCG leadership; being
completely cut off, being robbed of all our friends, having our names and
reputations dragged through the mud for THINGS WE NEVER EVEN DID WITHOUT SO
MUCH AS EVEN ONE COUNSELING SESSION.
Initially,
we truly believed that LCG had been given mis-information and that as soon as they
became knowledgeable of our innocence they would make everything right and we
would once again be in the fold of LCG brethren. Sadly, this didn’t happen. They
are now fully aware that we had no hand in these things. Many of our friends
all over the US have been questioned by church administration about our character,
attitudes and loyalty. All have attested that we were not in any way divisive
or in opposition to church doctrine.
Again we hoped that coming into that knowledge would soften them and
help us return to the fold. Again, it had no effect.
For
reasons that we do not understand, Mr. Meredith and Mr. McNair have hardened
their hearts toward us and it appears that no amount of truth revealed can
change their minds.
I have
written literally DOZENS AND DOZENS OF LETTERS pouring out my heart, begging
for forgiveness for whatever offense I committed, pleading for them to at least
meet with us to talk. We have called over and over again beseeching them to
counsel with us. We even called Mr. Meredith directly one day (he knows the
extension from having once worked at headquarters) but he said “I can’t talk”
and hung up on him. How can you mark
someone you’ve never even spoken to? One would think that marking would be a
last resort after trying repeatedly to work things out! There are even men who
have, in fact, left LCG to form their own groups taking with them LCG members;
and THEY aren’t marked but we are.
We met
with Mr. League and Mr. McNair one time the week we were dis-fellowshipped. It
wasn’t a counseling session but more of an interrogation session. There were a
lot of things going on at the time and they asked us of our involvement in them
(we weren’t). I fully admitted to
having had a negative attitude over things that had happened to me in the past.
I explained why we had been attending outlying congregations and why I didn’t
like attending in the Masonic Temple but I also explained that I had IN NO WAY
BEEN TRYING TO GET OTHERS TO STOP ATTENDING IN CHARLOTTE. There are others,
including ministers, who share my discomfort of worshipping the Almighty from a
Pagan Temple. Dr. Winnail told me specifically, in writing, that others shared
my concerns. They didn’t get
dis-fellowshipped. There is an altar filled with ash from offerings right
behind the curtain where ministers are standing to preach to us every Sabbath.
The hall is a temple. One only has to scratch the surface of research to
discover the abominable things that happen there. There are so many scriptures
that outline what God thinks about being worshipped from Pagan temples (Deut
12:2 , Exo 23:24, Exo 34:13, Psalm
78:58 , Deut 7:5, 2chron 31:1, 2kings 18: 4, 1corin 10:20 ). I never judged
others for attending in that temple. I
never tried to cause division over this issue. I just quietly made the personal
decision not to attend in Charlotte after studying my Bible on how God feels
when His people worship from Pagan temples. I was told from an evangelist AND a
high ranking minister at headquarters that there was NO RULE THAT I HAD TO
ATTEND MY LOCAL CONGREGATION and that it was okay if we kept the Sabbath in
outlying congregations if it made us feel more comfortable.
That
night, Mr. League and Mr. McNair never alluded to the fact that we were in any
trouble; never hinted at dis-fellowshipment or even suspension. In fact, Mr.
McNair said that 100% of the people he had talked to corroborated that we
were in no way involved with any of the divisions or heresies that were
going around at the time. As a side note, the people that were involved
ARE STILL SITTING IN THE CONGREGATION. They were willing to write over $20,000
in checks to earn forgiveness and avoid being kicked-out while others guilty of
the same beliefs and behaviors that had no money were dis-fellowshipped. In order for “justice” to appear to be fair,
the same crimes have to have the same punishments. Otherwise it looks like
favoritism or vendetta. Proverbs 11:1
says, “Dishonest scales are an abomination to the Lord, but just weight is His
delight”.
As we
left the meeting we were all hugging and talking about plans for the Feast
which was just a few weeks away. We had no idea that we were going to receive a
phone call from Mr. League and Mr. McNair the next morning saying that we were
dis-fellowshipped per Mr. Meredith. We were caught completely off-guard and
totally devastated. There was no mention of being marked. But then, two days
later we were marked from the pulpit by Mr. McNair without ever being told. We
found out from a shocked member of the congregation who immediately sent us a
text message notifying us of the marking. We subsequently received a Fed Ex’d
letter a few days later notifying us of the marking. By this time we had
already begun to call and write feverishly begging for counselling; begging to
work this out as Christians, as brothers and sisters. None of our letters were
replied to. None of our phone calls returned. However, they hand wrote this at
the bottom of our marking letter so at least we know they were aware of the
fact that we wanted to counsel.
We
didn’t let the letter discourage us. We continued to believe that this was all
just a big mis-understanding and that eventually we would be called in to talk.
I continued to write them on a nearly weekly basis; always begging for
forgiveness; always pleading for mercy, love and grace; always expressing how much
we love LCG and want to be a part of it; never getting a reply. Everything in
us wanted to be back in our church; back with our brothers and sisters. We told
them that we were “willing to do anything to clear our names”. They jumped to
the conclusion that that meant we were going to sue them and so they started to
spread that rumor throughout the church. To clarify, WE ARE NOT SUING THE
CHURCH.
As the
6 months drew closer, we were excited and hopeful to finally begin to work
toward reconciliation. I wrote Mr. McNair again telling him how hopeful we were
that we could work things out in time to keep the spring holy days with LCG.
Again I poured out my heart in apology for my negative attitude and outlined
many of the lessons this trial has shown me in my pre-Passover examination. My
last letter got a reply, but not the one for which I had been praying for
months. Rod McNair writes, “We are recommending another
six months for you to examine yourselves, pray, fast, and ask God to grant you
repentance”. ANOTHER 6 MONTHS?!? It was like being punched in the stomach. How do you tell someone, we understand you
want to counsel toward reconciliation but we’ve decided that we won’t even
speak to you for AN ENTIRE YEAR??? Actions speak louder than words – their
actions say “we don’t want you, stop begging to be back in the church”! The act
of making us wait an entire year before even having a conversation with us is
not love. It’s not
shepherding. It doesn’t show mercy, kindness, forgiveness or any other
attribute of Christian character. It’s hard and it’s mean spirited. God tells
us in in John 13:34 that we are commanded to love one another and in that love
He will know we are His disciples. Do LCGs actions
toward us show this love John speaks of?
God
says that He doesn’t even want to lose one! The job of a shepherd is to go
after lost sheep, help them and counsel them so that they can remain with the
flock. Not push them off the edge of a cliff, never looking back. Ezekiel 34:4
is about irresponsible shepherds and it says, “The weak you have not strengthened,
nor have you healed those who were sick, nor bound up the broken, nor brought
back what was driven away, nor sought what was lost; but with force and cruelty
you have ruled them”. I feel that this scripture perfectly describes what
happened to us.
Even if
the church truly believed that they had a genuine grievance with us they are
incumbent in the spirit of Matthew 18 to at least TRY to work things out as
brethren. Simply refusing to talk to us or return our emails is not a demonstration
of following Christ. We should know the accusation and be given the opportunity
to face our accusers, if for no other reason, than to be able to apologize to
them.