Ok, I can identify with all of that since I grew up baling hay and straw for many years. However, he continues with this where he describes the dread Jesus felt before he knew he was being crucified:We have all faced a task or obligation that we did not look forward to doing, but that had long-lasting benefits. Allow me to relate an example from my youth: I grew up on a farm and over time helped bale many thousands of bales of hay while riding on the back of an old punch and tie baler. In those days, when you saw that a field of hay had been cut and raked, you knew exactly what was soon coming.
Of course, the summer season working temperature would be in the 90s Fahrenheit (32 Celsius), the wires that held the bales together had a lot of sticky grease or oil on them, the baler would kick up dust and debris from the hay and field, and naturally, all of this would get into your eyes and down your shirt.
Now, after baling the hay, you had to load it on a truck and stack it in the barn loft. This represented an all-day job. At night, you could not wait to take a bath. Back then, the only problem was that we did not have indoor plumbing! Consequently, the fastest way to clean up would be to jump in the nearby creek or stream with a bar of soap. As you can imagine, a certain amount of dread crept up when we could see a hay field being cut–we knew what that meant for us.
Why mention this? Hold that thought for moment.
We will shortly be observing the Passover, which pictures the sacrifice of Jesus Christ for all humanity. Revelation 13:8 clearly states that Jesus (the Lamb of God) was slain from the foundation of the world. Did God understand in advance that it was conceivable for the angels and for humans to sin? Yes, He did! He made room for this possibility in His plan from the very beginning. Notice what Peter adds to our understanding about this in 1 Peter 1:18-20: “knowing that you were not redeemed with corruptible things, like silver or gold, from your aimless conduct received by tradition from your fathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot. He indeed was foreordained before the foundation of the world, but was manifest in these last times for you…”
Jesus knew what Isaiah 52 and 53 stated: He was going to suffer. With full understanding of what lay ahead in the coming hours, He naturally dreaded enduring that agonizing pain and suffering. But even knowing this in advance, He fully submitted Himself to God’s will. Even though He was not anxious to undergo excruciating pain, He knew there was an eternal purpose for it. As we read in Isaiah 53, verses 4 and 5: “Surely He has borne our griefs [sickness] And carried our sorrows [pains]…But He was wounded for our transgressions [for our sins], He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed.”
According to Holladay, the dread that Jesus felt for his upcoming crucifixion could have lasted for millions of years.
Somehow Holladay's "hay dread" does not compare to the same dread Jesus had the day before he was crucified and he was sitting down to eat with his disciples.From the beginning, Jesus Christ knew that He would be tortured and executed by the very humans that He created! From the beginning of the physical universe, possibly many millions of years ago, Jesus (then The Word) knew full well what lay ahead of Him and all that it meant.