A Very Personal and Private Open  Letter to the Grace International Fellowship, Formerly Known as Prince,  Leadership .
  
 Greetings in the Name of the Triune Jesus who  includes most, but obviously not all, in the wonderous works done in His  name.
Greetings in the Name of the Triune Jesus who  includes most, but obviously not all, in the wonderous works done in His  name. 
Nearing the traditional retirement age in America  and realizing you took me seriously when I joked the Worldwide Church of God  retirement program seems to be for the minister to drive into a tree at 65 years  old and 65 miles an hour, I wished to make a simple plea.
 
Crazy me, years ago when I asked in a Refresher  Seminar if the WCG was meeting its obligations to full time pastors to prepare  for their retirement, Mr. Ron Kelly assured us all, "we will take care of  you."  Whew...that really was encouraging.  We had to be patient and  trust the Administration, but no problem.  They all knew that the NT said,  something about saying, "be warmed and be filled but give not to them what is  needed..." , so I relaxed over doubts about what I was hearing   and obviously it was simply my carnal nature getting the best of me.   
 
When terminated, Mr. Curtis May of the  Reconciliation Dept said he's pray for me and wished me luck, which sounded a  lot like that scripture, but I realize it was just in the way I was hearing  it.  No one would really do that and not have it seem hilarious coming from  the "Reconciliation Dept."   That would be crazy!
 
Now I understand it doesn't matter and Church was  never about the money, but I estimated that I (sorry about that) inspired the  giving of millions...over 40 million in my own personal journey through "we will  take care of you."   My parents and 30+ other family members, mostly  ending up as ministers, elders, deacons and deaconesses all over the place gave  hundred of thousands I am pretty sure.  They have all gone back to their  roots or moved on to happy slappy mega-churches.  I, on the other hand, now  rub people the right way by teaching and practicing therapeutic massage.  I  get so tempted to declare myself a Prophet, Apostle, Witness or Really Special  Jesus Person, but it's just not in me.  Three Hundred Thousand folks have  downloaded my articles on things I seemed to have missed in Harmony of the  Gospels Class and Epistles of Paul.  Well actually, things I seemed to have  missed from Genesis to Revelation in my education by the experts at WCG.   One guy wrote me to tell me words can get you killed and another said I was just  bitter, but honest, I just ever wanted to know the truth about life and still am  working on that one.  One did say I was just another "High Priest of  Marduk," and I thanked him as I have not had a religious title for years now and  it feels really good.
 
Mr. Bernie Schnippert, who was legal counsel for the  WCG, told me he was really sorry but he could do nothing for those who didn't  get happy slappy over Jesus and were still in the employ of the church through  all the transitions. It's nice how he retired, moved to the Pacific Northwest  and all I hear about how nice it is to be near his family and grand kids.   I got marooned in South Carolina and everyone is a bit scattered due to  Church, Church, Church but that's fine. I never thought I'd get to live in the  deep south and in the Bible Belt to boot which serves as a constant reminder of  the fear, guilt and shame Jesus uses to keep us all in line.   Trust me, "Pray, Obey, Pay and Stay" is just as bad here as anywhere...Gnome  sayin??  I asked a few guys who stayed and still are with WCG now CGI, or  even UCG, PCG or RCG, if they believed it all and they said "No, but I want  to get to retirement."  Sheesh...I should have pulled that stunt!  Oh  well, proof that the children of light are more stupid than the children of  Satan at times.
 
Anyway, at the time, I did what you told me to do  with my severance agreement.  I took it to a lawyer friend but it was kinda  bad news for me it seemed.  She asked me if this document really came from  a church?  I said yes and she said, and I do apologize ahead of time for  this but her quote was kinda cool..."You're fucked."   Whew...after  fanning myself and telling her to please please not used bad words like that,  she said, "Ok, well this is not to your advantage."   "That's a lot  better I told her."  Well I mean the way she broke the news to me was  better, not the actual news contained therein.
 
First of all, and let me be clear, I know this  letter is just between you and me so I do understand a few things about the  attitudes the dear brethren have towards use despicable minister types.  I  know they think we deserve to go down in flames and love to mock us as God's  chosen ministers.  We know the Bible tells us to expect this.  We know  they think we were all insincere bastards just in it for the money, power and  control but we know this is not so.  I became somewhat of a bastard sinner  nutcase AFTER my Church of God experience, but don't think that should be held  against me.  Transitions are messy and like Cher said once, "Life is not  easy. Mine has been messy at times, but it is just me doing the best I  can."  Somehow that comforts me.  
 
Anyway...I think you have stashed millions somewhere  from the sale of assets my family and hundreds of thousands of others  bought for you guys.  I can't imagine that you are using it all up with  only five of you actually drawing a real retirement from it.  Can I have  some please?  Maybe around $5-600 a month just for rent and  groceries.  I'm not asking for medical insurance. While I don't have any  and can't get any, I feel pretty good and if I blow a gallbladder or get some  dumbass later in life disease, I will just agree to let go and enter the  Kingdom. I mean after all, we're all just dying to get to heaven anyway so no  biggie.  I can bite on a wooden stick for pain and if reasonably close to  the surface, can drink whiskey, like in the old days and just cut it out or  off.  Teeth come out pretty well with a well placed blow so again, it's not  like there aren't solutions to health challenges.  People with insurance  for such things really just lack faith in God's healing and Jesus Grace so  really, it puts me in a much more spiritually superior position.  It feels  good to act like I know it all.  Know what I'm  sayin????
 
Ok, well lots of thoughts to share.  I promise  this will be kept between us.  I anxiously away your proposal to help me  get through.  Oh shit.. (oopse sorry, I'd be afraid to give sermons these  days for all the new words I've learned since WCG days) ,I forgot you had me  sign away Social Security because, well you know, "we will take care of you and  we don't have to save it for you on ministerial salaries."  Pretty  slick!!!  So if you could include another $50/month, that would  help.   
 
Thanks so much!!! I know you will do the right thing  for those who built your buildings, bought your groceries, houses, cars,  vacations and funded your Holy Day sacrifices traveling all over the world for  Jesus.  The Cruise for Jesus in the Fall was a great idea!  Trash the  Festival but then take cruises talking about how evil it all was is  brilliant!!!   How do you guys come up with this  stuff?
 
Ok, shhhhhh.  This is just between us.   Bernie did say that if I talked badly about the Church and such, there would  truly be no retirement at all.  We'd not want that and I'm sure that's  not what YOU meant. I hate it when others speak for me  and don't represent me accurately.  Actually I hate it when they do  represent me accurately but that's another story I suppose.
 
Blessings and love to you all.  Let's Surprise  God like Ted Johnston likes to do and handle this quickly and as Jesus  would.  Since that crazy Jesus tricked me into coming into that nutty  Wildworld Church of God, the least He can do is give us a glass of cool water  getting over it all.
 
Thank you so much.  I can't wait to share your  response with just a few close friends.
 
Warm regards in Him
 
Dennis Diehl
High Priest of  Marduk