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First, let's be honest. This site exists and thrives because of our collective experience, the good, the bad and the ugly, for sometime in the past having "chosen" to affiliate with The Worldwide Church of God, Herbert W Armstrong, Garner Ted Armstrong, and ALL the various religious personalities, both minister and member associated with it. We are curious group as to what continues to go on with the splits, splinters and slivers of that once minuscule Church in the whole scheme of things. Some take time for thoughtful comments here while the vast majority just read and never say a thing. We assume they are thinking about it at least. We are at once curious about what else is going on in COGdom and angry we ever had the experience. Some seem to grow through as evidenced by their comments and some not so much as evidenced by their comments. But it is our common experience and the reason this site exists as a place to process our perceived realities. In layman's terms...a place to bitch and moan.
Ultimately, and I can only speak for myself, I want to understand WHY I did, thought, practiced and experienced what I did. It seems like just a year or two ago I that 18 year old kid coming on to the Ambassador College Campus to start what I felt in my soul, was my life believing , doing and teaching the absolutely right things about what God, Jesus and the Bible said and meant. I wanted to know who and what they were, where they came from and what the future would hold. I was terribly sincere and horribly naive. I went to AC intending to be a minister when told not to come there for that. That made no sense to me then but I gave them no choice and ended up being told by powers that be, "for you Dennis, the sky in the ministry, is the limit." Strange comment to me but I thought I knew what they meant...maybe.
The kindest and most idealistic years of the experience were the ones in college. From 1972 when I entered the holo...ministry, to 1998, when I exited the holo...ministry, it was one damn thing after the next. That was Winston Churchill's definition of history. One damn thing after the next and so it was all the years of my ministry. It was NOT what I thought it would be nor ever close to what I thought I had gotten myself into. In my 20/20 hindsight, I wish I had never heard of it or ever got on that plane to California in 1968 eating my last ham sandwich somewhere over the Grand Canyon in the approach to LAX because, well you know.
Disclaimer: The Blogmeister, and contrary to what some think it is not myself, can remove this posting if it is not appropriate for the site. But if left in place, just maybe it can open the hurting and angry mind to a new level of acceptance and perspective and heal. I know the site is not necessarily about healing from an experience, but it really is because even venting and expressing thoughts is part of the healing process. Moving past that is an individual choice or maybe not. I can't imagine anyone that comes to Banned HWA that does not want to heal and get potential answers to:
How could I have been so foolish in my choices?
What was I thinking?
Why did I not speak up when I knew what i was hearing was simply speculation and not fact?
Why did I have to experience this Worldwide Church of God mess in the first place?
Why did I have shit for brains?
Did I waste my life over this?
I am sure you can add your own thoughts but I believe we get the point. What's the point in having an experience if you never get to understand what is behind the experience? Of course, the why is subject to opinion of the experiencer but that is my point in this posting.
First of all, I know not one in a hundred here will actually watch and consider this series on The Holographic Universe. That takes an actual investment in time, requires a degree of curiosity about the topic and the absolute need to resist filtering it all through one's past or current perspectives which will manifest itself in sarcastic, cheeky and terribly negative comments which I know never appear on this site.
"This guy kills me!"
There are really only two explanations that I have for myself over just why did I have to have the Worldwide Church of God experience? 1. It just unfolded one stupid and ill advised decision at a time in my utter sincerity to know the truth of the Bible and life. or... 2. It was and is an experience designed for me and not by me for reasons that can never cross my mind without having had it. Or as I take credit for saying as one my one real life quote:
"Experience is not only the best teacher, it is the only teacher. Everything else is merely hearsay."
The next level, I am thinking, may not be anymore that I am the one having the experience. Maybe, just maybe something bigger is afoot here and something else is having an experience through me and through you by the way. I like that. It removes a lot of anger, guilt, shame and fear all in one swoop. You will never understand what I mean unless you watch the whole series and do so seriously and with an unfiltered mind. I am now 64 years old. That time from 1968 to the present , as I always heard but never experienced, passed like a weaver's shuttle to quote the book and then goes out. I am much seeking the "truth" at this age as as I was at that age. To think I had found it at 18 and there was no more to know than what was in a Bronze and Iron Age book seems to have been a mistake on my part TO ME. To many of you, I know you will say the current view is the mistake or as I was told once..."Your problem Dennis is that you need to give up your intellect, you will and come back to Jesus." I can't do that. I am not built that way and to do that would only lead to more anger and depression over past decisions that I now, TO ME, feel are simply no longer necessary to endure and carry around like so many rocks in my backpack. I'm dropping the whole backpack and going light. This series on The Holographic Universe has given me a new perspective that was and is sorely needed. It is not based on myths (though I sense there are some saying, "oh yes they are!), but... whatever. TO ME means TO ME. The idea that everyone will ever come to any "oneness" where two or three are gathered together simply is not so in reality. The concept of "we must all speak the same thing," is equally as ludicrous if one is going to actually seek the truth as that pearl of great price. We all know "speaking the same thing" merely means that one must agree with the person who encourages that. Sorry, no can do if I don't.
I found it serendipitous that at some point in the presentation, the narrator says he is was a 62 year old man with this, that and many other things having gone awry in life , sitting in his apartment in Greenville, SC. LOL...He may have been the guy next door and I never knew. Perhaps the "Infinite I" is playing with the script to get my attention. We can hope.
These presentations, (In 5 parts and I will leave it to the reader to find 2-5) are based on current theories and observations in quantum physics "falsely so called." I find them compelling and encouraging. Perhaps you will too and perhaps even produce that rare but very fulfilling "Aha' moment in your own experience that may come only once in a lifetime. This is truly one of the strangest and yet verifiable "realities" science well done has ever speculated on. Somehow at a deep level, it resonates because it just seems true to me. Enjoy, it will take an investment on your part in your time over days perhaps and no one can do that for you. If it threatens your paradigm, ask yourself why and what are you afraid of finding out if it truly is the way things are.
If this topic is inappropriate for Banned, then I'll remove it and we can all sink back down into the mire. However, it deeply inspired me because it is not something that relies on mere faith which is what we use to believe before we get the facts. Facts seem to trash faith over time. This seems true to me and has producded a nice shift in my own perceptions about my own experiences in and with the Worldwide Church of God