Monday, February 21, 2011

"Jesus had worked a great miracle in the Church and we don't have the money."



Dennis Diehl - EzineArticles Expert AuthorAt this moment, and perhaps it is a mistake to speak plainly because we all know we all must keep up appearances at all costs in our culture, but what the hell.

A number of years ago, at a ministerial refresher, which were always exhausting, I asked Ron Kelly in class, if the church understood the need to provide retirement for the ministry.  I quote the only answer ever given...

"We will take care of you....."
Ron Kelly

Thank you Ron, Yes you did.

Aside from suffering through yet another episode of losses relived, in many areas both public and personal, which has me deeply anxious today and depressed, I'd like to know where the good guy ministers went who simply disappeared when terminated along the way and never started, stole or hijacked a splinter or sliver Church of God to keep it going?  

And there were many good guy ministers.  Damn any of you who use the word "all" as if you knew them all.  They just weren't the narcissists or pushy ones.  Or maybe you never met them because they weren't yours. The nut cases have gone on and on and some are frankly mentally ill and doing just fine hiding in the context of religion.  Their quirkiness and strange views look downright religious and obedient. I have learned an ill minister can hide well in a religious environment. Somehow they look very "Biblical."  Actually some are and that is the scary part too. 

 Many meant well and got just as confused as I did along the way as I watched WCG go through one side show after another until it became the WishyWashyTrinityBSChurch of God. 

So Ron,  what do guys like myself do as we get older?  Decades of doing what told, inspiring, sincerely at the time, the giving of millions and giving back tens of thousands to our harm as I never made all that much being out of the good ol' boy loop.  I made $33,000 max.  I bought homes thinking I could stay put and my parents made up differences along the way.  Sorry mom...I know we don't tell what people make but this is different. 

We signed, and I don't remember either being given an explanation or an option, away social security because a church can take care of it's own and can opt out.  Big mistake huh?   I was 22 and I had to sign that to get paid my first $164/2 week  paycheck in the ministry.   I believe HWA had just spent the entire pay of the ministry that week on Steuben Crystal in the name of "please like me and let me have my picture with you...." ministry. 

On top of that, US Churches don't have to give retirements to ministers or at least it "depends."   Mine depended on staying with WCG as outlined by Bernie Schnippert who claimed such understanding yet washed his hands of me rather quickly.  
It was the head of the Church Reconciliation Dept, who has spend decades making a living reconciling with all the wrong people who told me....

"We will pray for you Dennis, and we wish you luck..."
Translation:

"Be warmed and be filled."

The personal dept at the time advised us/me to show the severance papers to a lawyer.  I did.  She said:

        "This is a Church?    You're F_ _ _ _ _"
(wanna see them?)

And so it still is today.  I told Joe Tkach years ago it was not nice that the Church retirement program for the ministry was at age 65 or so to drive into a tree.  He laughed.  I bet he is still laughing...I'm not.  Life is real.  My dad retired from Eastman Kodak 33 years ago.  Yes, he is 95.  My parents still live in the same home they bought when 22 years old.  Yes, mom's 94.  I'll never make it.  Too many moves. Too many losses.  Too many "God will make it up to us."  To many lost friends and opportunities being too busy being "God's minister."  What Bullshit...

I grew up where we "didn't say that" when anger came up.  So from a child, I have learned to pack it in.  It leads to depression because either one feels they have no right to speak it, or the price of doing so will be too high.  It has been both, in my Church Pastor experience. but what does it matter.  I had to take anti-depressants the last ten years in WCG just to get through.  I can't afford to do that now as I have no insurance in my current job. Not uncommon for Americans.  I also don't believe in covering it all up.  Dealing with is the cure. Facing it helps. But in the WCG the nice guys could do neither without being very quiet about it. 

My own losses along the way, personal and otherwise have been very difficult. Some of it I understand and some of it will always be a mystery to me. I am sorry to those close to me for hurting you as I kept my rage and fear inside.  I still do but you have gone away so it doesn't matter now.  

Actually the Tkach's have done very well through it all.  I rarely see anything about WCG and they are the ones who started all this religious foolishness.  Joe is the Mubarak/Gaddafi of the WCG/GCI

Enjoy your Non-Feast of Tabernacles Cruises for Jesus Ron...you did good adapting your way through the changes in the deep and unchangeable truths.  I also remember talking with you about retirement after termination and you said you wished you could but....ready for this.....

"Jesus had worked a great miracle in the Church and we don't have the money."
That crazy trickster Jesus.  Call me/Trick me.  Which is it?  I also believe I reminded you that you had just sold the entire campus for a yet to be disclosed price.  I bet it was over $500 wasn't it?  

Oh...and you guys still don't have it right.  Your miracle theology is hilarious and your new ministry is even less qualified to minister than ever.

Actually the Tkach's have done very well through it all.  I rarely see anything about WCG and they are the ones who started all this religious foolishness.  Joe is the Mubarak/Gaddafi of the WCG/GCI   However he is Pastor General over nothing. 

Breathe Dennis...it will pass....

Saturday, February 19, 2011

The Truth Shall Make You Free: Chapter 10 Excerpts




Chapter 10   Ted’s Feast

(pg 129) While the leaders of the Worldwide Church of God were fighting to patch up the crumbling financial foundation, and to discredit Garner Ted Armstrong in order to prevent him from drawing away tithe-paying members, the Church of God International was getting off to a very good start. Garner Ted, once heard on hundreds of radio and TV stations with his commanding voice and rapid fire delivery, was starting over on just one station.  Where at one time his broadcasts were produced in the most modern studios that excelled even commercial stations, he was now recording his first programs in a small commercial studio in Tyler, Texas, which operated out of a converted garage.  The first broadcast was heard on July 27, 1978 over WOAI in San Antonio, Texas, a clear-channel, 50,000-watt station.

Soon after, in early August, the Church of God International began holding services in Tyler, Texas in a rented hall.  The Church offices were initially located in a spare room of Garner Ted’s newly purchased ranch home just outside Tyler.  It wasn’t long before the mail started coming in.  Many of the envelopes contained financial donations.  By early September, the CGI was located in rented offices and already had a staff of five employees.  Plans were already being made to hold the Feast of Tabernacles and soon arrangements were made to rent the Convention Hall at Jekyll Island, Georgia.  For approximately fifteen years the Worldwide Church (pg 130) had held the Feast at Jekyll Island, and in 1978 decided to move to a large hall in Savannah and drop the Jekyll Island site.  With only one congregation meeting in Tyler, and a small radio ministry going, Garner Ted had absolutely no idea how many would show up at Jekyll Island.  Paula and I decided to attend, and made reservations at an apartment-style resort hotel, the Sand Dollar.  Ron Quinlain also decided to attend, and as it turned out we would be the only ones from the entire New York metropolitan area.

Gordon Muir, still on Quest payroll, although without any job, was watching the entire situation but didn’t know what he would do.  I told him, “I believe that Ted is going to get the work done.  I believe he is sincere and that this thing is really going to take off.  Why don’t you come to the Feast with us at Jekyll?”  Gordon wasn’t about to make any hasty decisions.  He said, “I think Armstrongism ahs had it.  The Worldwide Church of God is run by evil men and it appears that Herbert Armstrong is totally corrupt.  I certainly can’t have any part of that and I’m trying to find a job so that I can get out from under this whole thing.  If Stan hadn’t just thrown me out for no reason as he did, I would even feel guilty taking the pay checks.  I may go back to England and resume practicing medicine.  I just don't know.  But I’ll tell you one thing, I’m not about to get wrapped up in this thing with Ted. You know the problems in the past, that’s going to haunt him and the Scriptures say that a minister must be of good report, and John, Ted is not of good report.  I’m just not about to swap one Armstrong for another.”

This type of discussion went on for weeks on various phone calls and I constantly tried to convince Gordon that I thought that Garner Ted had fully repented of the past wrongdoings and that God had actually set him free in a strange way from the Worldwide Church.  I was convinced that Garner Ted was doing the right thing.  Paula had a more neutral attitude, but certainly wanted to look into it further, to see if this was where God would be working.  Ministers in the Worldwide Church were telling their members that what they called “Ted’s Feast” was going to be a disaster and the whole thing would fall on its face.  Anyone to get involved with Garner Ted, they said, would only find themselves out in the cold when the CGI collapsed.

Our entire family looked forward to the Feast at Jekyll.  On October 14th, we piled the four kids into our station wagon and headed pg 131) south.  Lat the next day we arrived in beautiful Jekyll Island.  Having spent previous Feasts at Mount Pocono, Pennsylvania, during the time of year when the air was getting chilly and leaves beginning to turn brilliant colors, this was quite a contrast. Warm weather, a beautiful ocean, and palm trees and other tropical plants, all contributed to the excitement of attending this first Fest of the Church of God International.

There were 520 people in attendance at this first Feast of the CGI, and, incredibly, they were from all over the world.  There were people from Canada, Australia, France, and just about every state.  There were many people who in their long drive to Jekyll Island had actually driven through as many as three locations where the Worldwide Church of God was holding their Feast.  Obviously people were committed to making a break from the Worldwide Church of God. That attitude was quite well expressed by a man from Tennessee who as staying in an apartment near ours.  He said, “Yes sir, these are the thinking people down here.  They’ve had enough of old Herbert.  One thing old Ted had better realize, we ain’t going to follow him either if he tries to pull any fast ones onus.  Yep, we’re the ones who won’t follow a leader blindly again. If Ted does right, God’s going to use him mightily. If he does wrong, he better realize that the people who are here just ain’t going to put up with it.”

Of course I hoped that Garner Ted was sincere.  I believed that he was, but at this point there was no way one could really be sure.  As the Bible says, “By their fruits you shall know them”.  It was much too early to see what kind of fruit would be born as a result of these fledgling efforts.  Time will tell, and we certainly had to give it a chance and see what would happen.  It was an exciting Feast and everyone seemed to feel the almost electrifying atmosphere of a new vibrant spirit.  The sermons of Garner ted and Ron Dart, a former evangelist with the Worldwide Church of God all served to inspire us to pull together to do the work of Jesus Christ.  There was to be no autocratic leadership, they said. The hard rule and the (pg 132) dictatorial government were all things of the past.  They were not scriptural, we were told.  Of course, those of us who were there knew that and it was good to hear that the leadership of the CGI planned to break out of that mold.  Was this genuine? Was this spiritual high that we were on for a week for real, or were we just caught up in the flash of being part of something new?  Time would tell.

During all the time of the Feast, the conduct of he Worldwide Church of God leadership was anything but Christian.  Since it was customary to take offerings at the Feast on the first and last days which are holy days, it was necessary to open a local bank account.  What Garner Ted did not realize until almost the last minute was the fact that his father and Rader had registered the name of the Church of God International in the State of Georgia when they found out that the CGI was going to hold the Feast at Jekyll Island. There was even a question as to whether or not the signature on the registration papers was truly that of Herbert Armstrong. Herbert Armstrong, the man who said that competition was the way of Satan, was engaging in a type of competitive practice worthy of the most unscrupulous businessmen.  This entire maneuver was viewed as blatant attempt to seize the funds that would be deposited by the CGI in its bank account. The conduct the Worldwide Church was more in line with that of organized crime than that of a church.

The entire attempt was outsmarted very simply.  The CGI opened its bank account in the name of the “Church of God International (a Texas non-profit corporation).”

Each day at the convention center, while CGI services were in progress, the Rader operatives were busy in the parking lot.  The Worldwide Church had to know who the traitors were in order that they could be purged out from among “God’s faithful people.”  License plates were photographed in order to aid in identifying those who were rebelling against Herbert Armstrong. While the Worldwide Church was playing its childish spy games, the CGI members were laughing in ridicule about the whole foolish scheme.  The general attitude was that if they wanted to know who was attending CGI services, there were no secrets; people would be happy to tell their names.  As long as the Rader spies seemed to enjoy their activity, we felt it would be poor sport to spoil their fun.

Everyday there were Ambassador College students visiting at Jekyll Island, having decided to come down from the Worldwide (pg 133) Church Feast site in Savannah.  Even they were under close scrutiny.  One student told of overhearing a festival monitor at the motel where he was registered, speaking to the desk clerk.  “Festival monitor” sounds like a title out of the “new-speak” vocabulary of George Orwell’s 1984.  Officially, their duty is to assist Feastgoers with any problems that they may have with their accommodations. However, their true purpose was somewhat more sinister than that.  In this one instance, the festival monitor was overheard to instruct the desk clerk to make note of all Worldwide Church registrants who did not return to their rooms for the evening. Through this means, going on the assumption that anyone who did not return to their room for the evening would be staying over night at Jekyll Island, the spiritual guardians of the Worldwide Church would know which unfaithful members they were going to consign to the lake of fire.

In the past, it had been Herbert Armstrong’s policy, as well as Garner Ted’s, to speak at each Feast site throughout the United States, which meant about twelve speaking engagements in the course of eight days.  In 1977, the father was unable to conduct his speaking tour due to his illness. This year, he was back at it again, although he was going to limit his speaking engagements to perhaps three or four.  “Garner Ted’s Feast,” as he called it, could not be ignored and Armstrong felt the necessity to speak nearby.  He chose to speak at the Worldwide Church Feast at St. Petersburg, Florida, where he announced mockingly, “My son has his little Feast going on up there at Jekyll Island and he has only 17 people, that’s all he has.”  From the reports of those who heard Armstrong make his statement, it was felt that he actually believed that what he was saying was actually true.  It appeared to many that he was becoming senile as had so often been reported.

Many who attended the Feast at St. Petersburg, upon hearing such a statement from Herbert Armstrong, followed by a scathing attack on his son, made that their last day in St. Petersburg and transferred to Jekyll Island for the balance of the week.  Yet others who continued to follow Herbert Armstrong were even more strengthened in their resolve to remain with the Worldwide Church of God.  After all, they reasoned, if Garner Ted was so evil that his own father would reject him in faithfulness to God, certainly they must follow Herbert Armstrong in order to please God.

It was obvious to any thinking person that the Worldwide (pg 134) Church leadership was reacting in a paranoid way to just about every move made by Garner Ted.  Some time prior to the Feast, Garner Ted announced that the CGI was going to be open, no secrets.  He announced that the financial details of the Church would be made public each year at the Feast, and that an audited financial statement would be issued each year at that time.  This put the Worldwide Church on the spot, as they had not released any financial information to the membership in several years.

While Garner Ted was releasing full details of the first couple of months operation of the fledgling Church to those gathered at Jekyll Island, the Worldwide Church of God was distributing what it called the “Treasurers Report.”  This report came out in October and was merely two pages with some graphs showing the apportionment of income and expenses.  Included was a very brief summery showing the total revenue of $76,161,300 and total expenses of $68,4290,500 leaving a deficit of $1,259,200 for the year 1977. There was no way from this abbreviated report that one could glean out any meaningful information other than a few grand totals.  The interesting point is that while this report covered the period ending December 31, 1977 it was not released until October 1978, after Gamer Ted had announced to the press that the CGI would not keep its financial affairs secret as was the practice with the Worldwide Church.  In a misleading statement signed by Stanley Rader, the “Worldwide Church Report” said, “The Work’s financial statements were audited and certified each calendar year by an independent firm of Certified Public Accountants.”  What Rader failed to note was the name of the accounting firm – Rader, Cornwall and Kessler, more recently known as Cornwall, Kessler and Pallazzo.  That was the firm with which Rader had been associated for so many years.  While he claimed to have withdrawn himself from any act of participation in the firm, the matter of independence was certainly one of question.  According to Rader’s own statements, there was never any cash consideration given to him by others for his share of the business, and he continued to maintain an association with Henry Cornwall in their ownership of Worldwide Advertising.




Friday, February 18, 2011

Why Does Questioning the Bible Make People So Nervous and Defensive?




Why Does Questioning the Bible Make People So Nervous and Defensive?



Dennis Diehl - EzineArticles Expert AuthorIf you wish to see the good, the bad and the ugly side of people of faith, just question the faith. I was a pastor soaking in Christianity and the Bible for three decades. I heard, read and studied all the plain and simple truth in the Bible from Genesis to Revelation. I can tell you the truth is neither plain nor simple and rather liked Paul's description of it all as being "the present truth." At least calling truth something that is currently understood gives some wiggle room for those times which shall come to grow a bit in the grace and knowledge that most Christians think they are open minded enough to really do. Most I know grow neither in grace, unless they attach a few dozen laws that you must keep to be one of the good people, nor knowledge which seems to scare the bejesus out of them when they really run up against it.


By far, the writings I have done that have proven to be the most popular for the open minded and enraging for those who enjoy that frame of mind a bit less, have been on Questions Your Pastor Will Hate. Many appreciate the questions and admit that they too have had the same questions as they sincerely study the text of the Bible stories and accounts of varied topics. These are the people who see the politics behind the texts. They admit that James and Paul really did bash heads and Peter was bashed by Luke and John as one who was totally unworthy of any authority in the church. Judas had betrayed Jesus and Peter had denied him, so that's pretty much the end of them in the eyes of John, Luke and Paul.


The story of Annias and Sapphira in Acts 5 is not a story about Peter killing two church members for not coughing up all the money they had "pledged" to the church. It is a spoof that the readers of Luke and Paul's community would understand of the buffoon Peter who, like the two church members who said they would give something to the church and didn't, said he'd never leave Jesus and fled. Peter who said he'd do one thing and did another is now punishing a couple who said they'd do one thing and did another. It was hilarious and a poke at Peter the Pathetic according to Luke and Paul. John mentions Peter three times in his Gospel and each time sandwiches Peter stories between two comments about Judas. The point is not missed on the original audience as is the story of Peter being forgiven three times by Jesus tacked on to the end of John's Gospel to show Peter is just as able to be forgiven as anyone else. (Side note: A really fascinating possibility is that the 21st chapter of John is the Missing ending of the pro-Peter Gospel of Mark. Mark is known to have no good ending to the Jesus story. It's ending has been added to make up for the bummer ending at Mark 16:8. John, on the other hand, has two obvious endings in chapter 20, the real ending and chapter 21, the forgive Peter ending.)


At any rate, to question the story is to run great risk of abuse at the hands of the faithful who need the stories to be literally true as they learned in Sunday School and that all the characters of the New Testament Church loved each other in Jesus and got along famously in the faith. That is very far from reality, but don't question it.


I can't tell you how many, while not near as many as those who appreciate the inquiry, take the time to write and remind me I will change my mind when I am frying in the fires of Hell in the judgment. No one has bothered to answer one question posed, but they just know I should go to hell for asking it. Some who write are subtle in their warnings to me. Some sound like a human form of God who will warn me to "gird up my loins" (my loins are just fine) and get ready to answer, but that's where it ends. I guess they feel God himself is about to break out upon me for asking questions about the faith. So far so good. Some talk to me like I imagine Moses talked to the Children of Israel when he was really angry at them in God's name. Some are not so subtle as one reminded me that "Dennis, words can get you killed." Well the history of religion that does not appreciate questions proves that!


Is it wrong to notice the inconsistencies, errors, goofs, bad science, poor examples, contradictions, animosities, politic and real history of the Bible? Depends who you ask. Those who believe that none of those things exist in the Holy Book would shout "yes!" In my view, the answer is "no it is not." Why is it OK and even something one should demand of their honest selves? Because ideas have consequences. Because the stories and ideas expressed in the texts are used to control people in various life circumstances. Because some use the mythologies of the Bible to make up literally real laws that effect women and children, and generally not in a good way. Because many are kept in fear, guilt and life long shame being reminded way too often that they, as a human, are worthless without divine intervention. Being born right the first time, as I have said in the past, is a truth that is kept far from their consciousness.


It is always right to ask questions about that which seems like it deserves to have a question asked. If you can't imagine Joshua raising his hands and stopping the earth from rotating without planet wide consequences...just ask your Pastor how can that be. Of course be ready to hear, "with God all things are possible," which is not what you asked. If you can't picture penguins and polar bears ambling down to the middle east to get on the Ark, just ask your Pastor about that. If you wonder where dinosaurs or Homo Erectus fit in, just ask your Pastor. The answer might be ill informed, but it's ok to ask.


If you notice that Paul never quotes Jesus, yet gets to write most of the NT heavy meaning of Jesus, just ask. If you notice that Paul thinks Peter, James and John, the disciples of Jesus don't seem to have anything Paul needs to learn from them and he learns nothing from them, and think that's kinda strange...just ask. If you notice the Birth or Resurrection of stories as written in the Gospels don't match very well and seem contradictory, just ask. If you say "they seem to be contradictory," be prepared to have the word "seem" jumped upon, but you still have the right to ask. I'm not saying you'll get a good or correct answer. You might, but probably not. But you have the right to ask. And you certainly have the right to notice the many problems in the Bible if you know the Bible well enough to notice in the first place.


One thing is for sure. If you are a genuine seeker and you truly notice that the Bible has some real problems with what we truly know today about many topics and even within itself in the form of many contradictions and editing done by one to correct the problems of the other, it's ok to ask. A real seeker cannot not notice what they notice. You can't go back to the lame apologetics that many offer to explain away the problem as if there is no problem. You can't unsee what you do see. You can't unring a bell. Oh..you also have the right to expect not to be penalized for asking in the first place. Just don't count on it.